Ever haunted by a melody, a tune that replays over and over in your head? Even as I write this, an enchanting melody continues to flow through my mind. Sure, a catchy song comes along once in a while and for a season of time I’ll hum it or sing it, much to the annoyance of my beloved wife. (My sing alongs in the theater also annoy her, but that’s a story for another day.)
“Vincent”, an ode to artist Vincent Van Gogh laments his sad passing. Its melody has been in continuous replay in my head for about two weeks – sad, indeed. Vincent died of self-inflicted gunshot wound to the head at the age of 37 years. Depressed over his lack of commercial success and, no doubt, other personal issues, he suffered emotionally and, at one point, was confined to a mental hospital where he painted one of his best-known works.
Click on the picture to hear “Vincent” (Starry, Starry Night)
In the ten or so years of his artistic career he sold only one painting, no doubt contributing to his sense of low self worth.
Van Gogh’s paintings today are considered some of the most valuable in the world. In fact, six of his works are listed among the highest prices paid at auction, ranging in values from $138 million to $64 million.
Following prayer and meditation, I think the message that came to me is really a message for someone harboring thoughts of suicide.
When life is so terribly unbearable, when you think you can no longer continue in anguish and you feel you must find a way out, it is at this point you must not abort your life. As some say, when you are this low, you can only go up. And that’s the point: when you are at your lowest, YOU CAN GO UP!
Imagine the unintended consequences of your decision to prematurely end your life. You may be depriving someone of a “masterpiece” they so long for. All life is precious. No life is worthless, at least not to others.
Even when you no longer love yourself, God loves you and he sent his only natural born son to redeem what you would otherwise think a worthless life.